Current mood:

contemplative

So I'm another year older...
I started this account a while back on a whim. A friend that I occasionally talked with suggested that I try it out, and that I would have more talking time with other folk.  So I did.  5 months later, I made my second post.  I then posted three times that week.  And thus became the standard of random postings for my experience here.  Over time, my life has changed.  I was both in and out of relationships.  I ended up with two LJ accounts, and ended up dropping the first one for this one.  I moved and attempted to start over my life.

Through all of that, the problem has often been, as is always the case on sites like this, is who do I want to pretend to be.

There is no way to be truly true to who I am, since who I am changes so much depending on who else I am with and what I am doing. Now wait a minute, that makes me sound like I am some kind of fake who just pretends to be different people. Not quite.

I am an unusual person, with a HUGE variety of interests, and a wide range of emotions. I am also smart enough, however, to realize that not all of my friends share the same interests, and that sometimes, behaviours that are appropriate with some people are not appropriate with others (think about stuff that you would say and do with your college frat buddies opposed to what you would do and say with your grandmother).

So it's interesting to look at what I wrote over the past couple of years, and how drastically they have changed. Over all I think I am fairly happy with the persona I have presented, and it is fairly accurate for the most part. Looking at profiles (both here and elsewhere) of other people that I know has been a bit of an eye opener, as it both lets me see sides of people I've never seen before, and also lets me know a bit more about how people wish they were seen by others.

So now I put forth a question to you (assuming anyone actually ever reads this, of course...). How similar is your profile to how you actually see yourself? How many "little" white lies do you have on your profile to make yourself seem better? What's something you wish you could change about yourself to match one of those little white lies? What's something where you wish you didn't have to lie about, something you are happy with, but you don't think the world at large would be?